Shopping blues!

An ultimate rule in life: Don't go shopping without money in your pockets!

Well, that is unfortunately true to me since I just got from shoppping without nothing in hand when I return home. I went to Dumaguete's Lee Plaza for some unwinding after a week-long toxic hospital duties. But sadly, my allowance is not in yet, and all I have to do is to wait and contemplate for a pair of Chuck Taylor shoes, a simple white shirt and a jacket (I don't know why I'm interested in buying one when I now pretty well that it's summer). My dad does not have any plan in mind to be at least merciful to me this summer. Hey, summer is perfect for money spending, right? All I depend on for my survival are my sisters. Thank God, they are generous enough to give in to some of my clothing and food indulgence!

I don't know if going downtown is a relief, an ominous sign for my financial insufficiencies, or maybe a realization that you can't have everything you like even if you feel like having it NOW. I guess, it was both a relief and a frustrating thing. Relief because I got the life of my time fitting in clothes, shoes, and sunglasses and frustrating because I can do nothing in acquiring them let alone a thousand pesos poorer now(huhu).

I guess it was never, thankfully, a big deal for me in experiencing this sad delayed gratification thing, just maybe in the right time I will know why I have to delay things that cause a bit of sadness. Maybe, just maybe. I leave that to decades more of existence in this world. But for now, I am resolved: NO SHOPPING 'TIL THE POCKET IS FULL or perhaps 'til the ATM/VISA card is ready for spending.